Thirsty for connection

a world full of fake smile, people pleasing, fake it till you make it attitude, a world where people want to associate as its beneficial for the status quo & material gains. a world where we take step away from ourselves to fit into the world which we don’t like.

a place where we are looking for real connection while we are still faking ourselves in hope to have deep connection once we feel safe. i know it sounds real stupid & crazy somewhere we are being & doing that.

Our connection with self has diminished. We look into other persons eyes to see ourselves when we cant see ourselves without judgement in the mirror. when was the last time you made an eye contact with yourself in the mirror & said “i love you, i adore you for everything you have been through & come this far”

we look for honest connection in all our relationships when we lie to ourselves daily, even when we speak to ourselves in our head. we shhh!! our thoughts, we deny praising ourselves & if we do we find faults immediately and then we expect other person to appreciate us & say those things which we dont say to ourselves.

the only thing i can say, if you are someone going thru this, start with you 1st. Take that 1st step to look in the mirror, make eye contact with yourself & say ” i love you” till the time you dont stop judging yourself.

Build that connection with yourself, just incase you need assistance i am there. Its taken me years to look straight in to  my eyes in the mirror & not judge me. i don’t mean just eye contact. just stand there naked, not just the clothes out, even the judgement, escapism out and say ” i adore you & i will always have your back” love J

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