concept of being happy

The concept of being happy seem to baffle me now. Its become a pressure to be happy even if one isn’t, its like not willing to look at the present emotions, body sensation & being aware of whats going on, whats working, whats not working. Its like just put all these under the carpet & be happy, or say pretend to be happy. because being happy is all about living & being alive, is it so?

ps: this blog is about me, what i think & feel, its my vulnerable state of being & writing. you are always free to leave comment below, if that makes you happy.